My route to motherhood though modern medicine and DI. Now I'm expecting the unexpected as I find my way through motherhood..
Monday, July 13, 2009
Some people deserve to get punched
DSW*: When did you get married?
Me: 2002. In September.
DSW: Oh me too! But November. But I guess I win!
Me (kinda knowing what she means but asking anyways): What do you mean?
DSW: Well I have a baby and we all know you can't have babies.
Me: What the fuck did you just say to me?
DSW: Um, nothing?
Me: You need to clock out and go home.
Oh my I was so hot. Then like 20 minutes later she comes back in and kept trying to rub my shoulders. The nerve of some fucking people. Maybe i'm just sensitve? But there were other people in the room and they couldn't believe she would say something like that. My god, I don't blurt out about how we all know she cheats on her husband all the time and that she's ugly slut. You know, because I'm a classy fucking bitch. So I tell my boss about it, more in a can you freaking believe that way, not so much tattling. But my boss thought it merited a counseling session and a note in her file. Take that you foul uttering beast! I wins and I felt kinda ok with that. Also they are moving her to the midnight shift until she can act right and keep her effing mouth shut.
*DSW - Dick Stuffed Whore
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
I has a sad..
Since its been forever lets just have a quick and dirty bullet post! Yay!
- Our orders to New Mexico got cancelled. This made me VERY happy. They got cancelled because my kidneys are way more fucked than anyone thought. Not like transplant and dialysis fucked (yet) but enough for them to have had to do another biopsy and put me on super high doses of prednisone. Result: didn't work, moving on to another medication. All it did was make me gain 40 pounds in 4 months and give me acne like it was 1999 again.
- Took my cousins to Disney World in April. It was awesome, they had NO idea they were going until we were about 2 hours from arriving. They thought we were going camping. It made me really happy that they had a good time. They are both honors students and all around good kids despite being teenagers. They had never been on vacation before or been spoiled the way they were for the week we were there. I love my Aunt, thier mom, but I hate the way she lives her life and the way her kids suffer for it. So it was nice to let them forget about thier problems, be kids and spoil the shit out of them.
- Working alot. Like A LOT. We're short 2 people, other people are deployed and the new airmen we've got don't have high enough level certification to work by themselves. This makes it suck. It means I'm there just to baby sit but I get lots of reading done.
- Bought a new car. Husband's check engine light came on so we traded it in. Thats how non handy we are. I wish I was making this up.
- We got a new pup,a doberman mix and her name be Lulu. Also known as: Lulu Beene, Lu Beenus, Lu Beenie, Beenus, Louisa Von Doberman and No Lulu goddammit what the fuck are you doing!! We had gone to a dog barkery here to get Roxie's picture taken and we saw Lulu there and just had to take her home. We loves her to bits already.
- Going to see Tori Amos in 20 days! Seriously this has been something I wanted to do for the last 10 years and the planets finally aligned in all the right ways. I'm going with my mom but I can just pretend she isn't there.
And thats pretty much it. Oh yeah the whole baby thing. I'm thinking it just isn't gonna happen. With my kidneys and all the meds I'm on theres no way this bird is going to be cleared for take off. I try so hard most days to not even think about it, somedays it works other days not so much. I'm thinking next year we might have enough money to at least get started with an agency. I'm still signing up for insurance through my job in November just in case because they cover 6 IUIs. But I'm not holding my breath. Its been almost 8 years we've been trying. True, most of them were blind, not knowing we had a real issue other than stress, time apart or minor health stuff. I'm just so fucking ready.